Happy

I just want to be happy.
Happy is self-inflicted.
and at times a difficult concept to grasp, to conceive.
The concept is simple: "do what makes you feel good"
The investment is insurmountable yet the implementation to this idea is where the trouble lies
There are plenty internal & external forces constantly preventing and prevailing against you.
Non-ignorable, relentless, daunting, draining.
You don't give up the fight but at the same time its likely you can't give it your all.
Times this by day in and day out and on repeat, and you've got yourself trying to find what makes you happy...
...all for the sake of your sanity
or to remember what "happy" felt like
not even for feeling it brought you - ecstatic joy.

You can easily remember you happy but you can remember you happy

I say find out fast before happy becomes a case of nostalgia
instead of an emotion taking place now.

Happy isn't hard to achieve, you just aren't trying to achieve it.

"I Hate Stripping"

I Hate Stripping
by
Loany G


I got mad love AND respect
for this girl
It's the reality of some
[and just entertainment for others].
And I appreciate the fact she gave us the real deal
the raw truth.

This is the real!
and to simply put it
It's like that...

College comes with a cost
no guarantees

You gotta make it somewhere
Everyone starts somewhere
Only you can guarantee it for

Is your future assured?

-Mikeman

The Drive

Sometimes I wish I would of started this drive a little earlier on this journey.
I was always the type to say,
"we'll get there when we get there"
but now I want to be there and I'm not there.
My dream, my goal
it was never slept on
it just wasn't as aggressively pursued.
I spent too much time in cruise control and not in the fastlane.
Now my goal is sightseeing and I'm fixated on the sights.
I have dreams, supreme.
Entangled in the arts, caught up is my heart.
My goals in life have multiplied,
pursuing them I'll do until the day I die.
I wish I could paint you this picture
picturesque & panoramic
I'm not too far off because I'm in the vicinity
but I've got to get going because now is where I want to be
but I'm still working on getting there.
Now is the place and this is the this the time,
so don't count me as late,
I just merely haven't arrived.

Current Standings...

I think I just needed to vent so...
I'm gonna write because that seems to be the only thing I can get right.

Not really sure where to begin...
or where it began.
Things seem to fall apart
it likes making me a part.
I try my best not to fall apart
but it's hard to conceptualize
this shit isn't art!
It's nothing new or foreign
I just wish I had better control of the reigns.
They seem to like to fail me
All at once, all for one, I am the one
that lucky son of a gun.
Sometimes they win, sometimes I can't win
but no matter who wins they never get the best of me
and that substance comes from within.
Many give up and plenty give in
but no matter the odds
I'm guaranteed
the Win.

"Time"

Time
Do you have it?
Not hours and minutes
but the infinite occurance of past, present & future
Time is neither mine nor yours
Time we are yours
So don't tell me we have all the time in the world.
Live the day to the fullest
Not as if you have tomorrow to make it up.
Live for the moment
(Like you own it)

Our most valuable resource wasted,
Wasted on the past, not living in the present and formulating the future.

If you could just look past the past by putting your past in the past
Live each day to its full potential granted second chances are rare to come by but we're given a fresh start in life everyday
makes the uncertain gift of the future a little more clearer
day by day.

I suffer from...

An overactive mind,
a heavy heart
I get too far ahead of myself
and I tend to forget about myself
I'm having trouble saying what I mean
I got it right but it was all a dream.

My thoughts run a million miles per hour
Sometimes in life I feel devoured
My soul's gone awry
My body ain't alright
I'm running on E due to no sleep.

I know if my mind, heart, body & soul ain't in it,
I'm not in it to win it.

You can't buy time and I'm just waiting on mine.

So I grind until it's my time to shine.

"Shine" by Mikeman

I don't get how anyone can be with someone that dims their shine.
I couldn't be with someone that comprises what's mine.
She's the star in the relationship and its clear to see.
With a future and personality so bright,
her dude must of caught her with a bunch of artificial neon lights.
Boyfriend mean muggs while the girl lights up the room with a smile
that'll light up the night sky for miles.
I'm not speaking as another dude trynna get at her.
I'm speaking as the one who reminds her.
She'll never be that that star she was destined to be
not hangin' wit that B.
You shine 'cause you're a star
I just need you to know who you are.

by Mikeman

"Out of Love"

"Out of Love"
by Michael A Bowens

In and Out of Love like Cheri Dennis
Back and Forth like a game of tennis
Same thang expecting a change
This is INSANE!
And yet we live it.
You wanna break but not break up
We're exclusive but I saw you with him
I love you, I hate you
let me love you, fuck you
like opposites we attract
but like damn magnets we repel
We don't fight tooth & nail because we're not together,
So I can't "go to hell"
You're volatile and unstable
And for us I was willing and able
But I was playing you, playing me
We both can see that this cant be
Thinking the same will change
living the beautiful insane
Score: 0 to 0 love
because there is no love, love
I'd love a rematch
but 'til then
Out with Love.

Mikeman