I just want to be happy.
Happy is self-inflicted.
and at times a difficult concept to grasp, to conceive.
The concept is simple: "do what makes you feel good"
The investment is insurmountable yet the implementation to this idea is where the trouble lies
There are plenty internal & external forces constantly preventing and prevailing against you.
Non-ignorable, relentless, daunting, draining.
You don't give up the fight but at the same time its likely you can't give it your all.
Times this by day in and day out and on repeat, and you've got yourself trying to find what makes you happy...
...all for the sake of your sanity
or to remember what "happy" felt like
not even for feeling it brought you - ecstatic joy.
You can easily remember you happy but you can remember you happy
I say find out fast before happy becomes a case of nostalgia
instead of an emotion taking place now.
Happy isn't hard to achieve, you just aren't trying to achieve it.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
Black Aquarium
(after a good 4 year hiatus)
So a lil older, a bit more grown
I came back with a smooth, impressive
Black Aquarium
He's a beast when it comes to eating his bloodworms. So vicious. A curious lil fella that gets into the weirdest positions and places
and does the oddest things
but it's cool because that iridescent color
he's got going on is immaculate!
+
Yes, 2 are actually albino/white/blonde
I've always had these frogs as a pet ever since 4th grade
It's fun to watch them inhabit the bottom of the aquarium
One pretty cool aquarium
Sunday Night
[Arizona Ice Tea x Cityscape]
chill way to relax on a hot
-Mikeman
Monday, May 28, 2012
#MusicMonday: Anjulie - "Rain"
Anjulie - "Rain"
Sometimes I just like to chill out to this song.
Anjulie
is a Canadian "pop" singer/songwriter from Guyana of Indian descent
now working on here sophomore album
after several hits off of her '09 debut album 'Anjulie.'
But back to the song...
We all know this feeling of
"wanting to get back with an ex
but knowing better and knowing you shouldn't
so you're then tortured and left thinking to yourself what to do type deal"
but I truly think
Anjulie completely captures it in it's entirety.
The feeling of being caught out in the rain.
In between 2 decisions because you're living lived both right and wrong.
Rain, one of the purest moments of reflection.
Causing you to be completely submerged in thought, pain, pleasure
with no shame liberating yourself or with total regret, crying out in camouflaged sorrow.
"I know you're not good for me
And I know you're like a drug, it's killing me.
But I don't wanna get my fix
No baby, I don't want to let you in our out."
I easily play this 5x in a row.
It's that real.
#MusicMonday 5/28/12
Mikeman
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Inspired.
Funny how inspiration can come from the most unlikely of places.
At times it's at an all-time low.
Other times it's coming at me from everywhere and everything and it just can't be contained. To where I'm bursting with it and sometimes have no idea what to do with it.
It's immobilizing. And you just have to wait until the wave subsides...
Like a midnight rush, blessings in disguise.
And now more than ever I'm feeling inspired, no lie.
I've always knew there were beautiful things out there,
(I've seen them myself)
I've always knew there was more and wanted better, wanted the best for myself
(I've dreamed and made it a goal for myself)
but actually witnessing and being in the presence of these intangibles
makes me want to go even harder to take it even farther.
Inspired.
Some from people, people I view in the highest regards.
People who will never know how big of an impact they have on me,
Regardless of how well I truly know them but never letting that change the fact they inspire me.
Some from things, things overlooked, things forgotten.
Things not as mentioned, things not regarded as cool or the norm, things not as socially accepted.
No matter how odd or off because it's those that in get me going.
The way things should be and how I want them to be.
Some from places, places that only take a mood or a mindset to transition to.
Places that a mere image can have you jet-setting with the feeling.
Places where being in it's presence will have will have it undeniably apparent.
Ultimately, this collaborative conglomerate of inspiration keeps me fueled and motivated to do, to be, to achieve.
Life... that's inspiring enough
And I'm inspired!
At times it's at an all-time low.
Other times it's coming at me from everywhere and everything and it just can't be contained. To where I'm bursting with it and sometimes have no idea what to do with it.
It's immobilizing. And you just have to wait until the wave subsides...
Like a midnight rush, blessings in disguise.
And now more than ever I'm feeling inspired, no lie.
I've always knew there were beautiful things out there,
(I've seen them myself)
I've always knew there was more and wanted better, wanted the best for myself
(I've dreamed and made it a goal for myself)
but actually witnessing and being in the presence of these intangibles
makes me want to go even harder to take it even farther.
Inspired.
Some from people, people I view in the highest regards.
People who will never know how big of an impact they have on me,
Regardless of how well I truly know them but never letting that change the fact they inspire me.
Some from things, things overlooked, things forgotten.
Things not as mentioned, things not regarded as cool or the norm, things not as socially accepted.
No matter how odd or off because it's those that in get me going.
The way things should be and how I want them to be.
Some from places, places that only take a mood or a mindset to transition to.
Places that a mere image can have you jet-setting with the feeling.
Places where being in it's presence will have will have it undeniably apparent.
Ultimately, this collaborative conglomerate of inspiration keeps me fueled and motivated to do, to be, to achieve.
Life... that's inspiring enough
And I'm inspired!
Pupusas
Last week I was straight got down on these bad boys.
Similar arepas of Latin American cuisine,
Pupusas are a traditional El Salvadorean meal
made of masa, quesillo y carne
(res, pollo or pulled pork)
usually accompanied with
black beans, cheese, curtido y salsa.
So good.
Better than good.
These are heaven!
Meat, cheese and masa
blended together like that should be a SIN!
My advice:
find you own local pupusa spot, rapido
haha
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
M.I.A. - "Bad Girls"
"Live fast, die young. Bad girls do it well"
So, just in case you didn't already know
M.I.A. is that chick!
[and will always be in my book]
I've always been a huge fan of M.I.A.
since her first album 'Arular' to 'Kala'
(even her 3rd album '/\/\ /\ Y /\').
With her world/dancehall/electronic/hiphop beats
and her war influenced edgy political/cultural and sometimes sexual lyrics
and unique style & artwork.
This British rapper, M.I.A. has just always been a favorite artist of mine.
So now M.I.A. coming out with this new video for "Bad Girls"
She on some next level dope shit!
Stuntin' mad hard all over the place
with both style and substance.
From car surfing Middle Eastern style to the lyrics
M.I.A. is shutting things down!
the video just goes HARD
Insanity
It is a insane as the commercial.
I'm 2 weeks into this 60 day program.
This MAX INTERVAL TRAINING is
kicking my ass!
I'm eating better/healthier.
I'm being pushed past my limits
Digging DEEPER!
Mikeman[2 weeks of Insanity]
Monday, December 12, 2011
"I Hate Stripping"
I Hate Stripping
by
Loany G
I got mad love AND respect
for this girl
It's the reality of some
[and just entertainment for others].
And I appreciate the fact she gave us the real deal
the raw truth.
This is the real!
and to simply put it
It's like that...
College comes with a cost
no guarantees
You gotta make it somewhere
Everyone starts somewhere
Only you can guarantee it for
Is your future assured?
-Mikeman
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
My Birthday Weekend '11
was my birthday!
The goal was to celebrate it the whole weekend long!
Friday/Saturday/Sunday
nothing happened.
I did nothing for my birthday...
No club, dinner, club, party, movies, & the bestfriends completely forgot.
Had the birthday dinner with the fam and that's it.
Not trying to put anyone on blast
BUT
my friends definitely didn't come through this year.
My birthday definitely didn't go as planned but neither does life...
Happy Birthday me
Friday, August 19, 2011
The WEEKEND before school starts...
It is the weekend before school starts
and I really just want to
PARTY
just one last time before the start of school
[music x dancing x late nights x ihop x friends x talking shit x having a great time]
but in reality I'll probably do nothing.
in hopes of going out tonight...
if I hear my song
IT'S ON!
and I really just want to
PARTY
just one last time before the start of school
[music x dancing x late nights x ihop x friends x talking shit x having a great time]
but in reality I'll probably do nothing.
in hopes of going out tonight...
if I hear my song
IT'S ON!
Monday, July 18, 2011
FAUX SHO
My latest purchase
the "Faux Sho" teeby GUESS
a 100% cotton v-neck graphic t-shirt
that comes in various colors:
white, black and teal.
I think it's a pretty cool t-shirt
especially since I'm not a graphic tee
kinda of guy.
It gets nothing but complements
when I go out from both
the guys and girls.
It's just a real fly tee!
Get yours here
FAUX SHO
by Guess
The "When I'm Gone" Effect
The "When I'm Gone" Effect
It's sad to say it comes to everyone as a surprise...
but it's no surprise.
Classic case of boy meets girl/girl meets boy.
Guys, you find a good chick
that you like more than the fact she likes the dick.
Ladies, you find a good man
that likes you more than your looks.
She's beautiful, she cares, doesn't want you just for your money and you know good and well she could be the one.
He's handsome, treats you right, doesn't want you just for the title and you know good and well he could be the one.
There's good chemistry, great personality, nonstop humor,
a wit & intelligent and love felt by all
his for her, hers for him.
A good love.
The love is going nice and strong
But as time goes on
they ran out of it,
something went rancid!
Somehow, at some time
things were said:
words and objects.
Things were hurt:
hearts and feeling, prides and egos.
As they make their final arguments
she says, "you'll never know how good you had it."
He says something that hits home HARD and hurts...
She gathers her strength and states,
"you'll miss me when I'm gone."
The trial was ugly
the verdict is: no longer together
irreconcilable differences he/she was an [censored]
you're now broken up because you both screwed up!
It's a shame it took a break up for him
to realize how good of a woman he had
It's a shame it took a break up for her
to realize how good of a women she is.
It's the age old "when she's gone"/"when he's gone" or "when I'm gone" effect.
No matter if it was she or he who ultimately messed up in the relationship.
We all know not to get into a relationship if we're not ready
and better yet,
getting into a relationship to make you feel happy is a recipe for disaster
because 2 unhappy people starting a relationship only makes one miserable couple.
You're only getting back what you put in.
With that being said,
Why get into a relationship to test your worth?
Or better yet, to find out what your worth is?
Again, it's sad to say, people only discover their worth
"when I'm gone" after the damage is done,
the undervaluing of self by self and others.
It's about time people, both men and women
know their worth before getting into a relationship.
Know your worth so that it can
never be undervalued, destroyed or treated any less that what it is.
Know your worth
so that next time you won't fall victim to the realization of the "When I'm Gone" effect.
It's sad to say it comes to everyone as a surprise...
but it's no surprise.
Classic case of boy meets girl/girl meets boy.
Guys, you find a good chick
that you like more than the fact she likes the dick.
Ladies, you find a good man
that likes you more than your looks.
She's beautiful, she cares, doesn't want you just for your money and you know good and well she could be the one.
He's handsome, treats you right, doesn't want you just for the title and you know good and well he could be the one.
There's good chemistry, great personality, nonstop humor,
a wit & intelligent and love felt by all
his for her, hers for him.
A good love.
The love is going nice and strong
But as time goes on
they ran out of it,
something went rancid!
Somehow, at some time
things were said:
words and objects.
Things were hurt:
hearts and feeling, prides and egos.
As they make their final arguments
she says, "you'll never know how good you had it."
He says something that hits home HARD and hurts...
She gathers her strength and states,
"you'll miss me when I'm gone."
The trial was ugly
the verdict is: no longer together
irreconcilable differences he/she was an [censored]
you're now broken up because you both screwed up!
It's a shame it took a break up for him
to realize how good of a woman he had
It's a shame it took a break up for her
to realize how good of a women she is.
It's the age old "when she's gone"/"when he's gone" or "when I'm gone" effect.
No matter if it was she or he who ultimately messed up in the relationship.
We all know not to get into a relationship if we're not ready
and better yet,
getting into a relationship to make you feel happy is a recipe for disaster
because 2 unhappy people starting a relationship only makes one miserable couple.
You're only getting back what you put in.
With that being said,
Why get into a relationship to test your worth?
Or better yet, to find out what your worth is?
Again, it's sad to say, people only discover their worth
"when I'm gone" after the damage is done,
the undervaluing of self by self and others.
It's about time people, both men and women
know their worth before getting into a relationship.
Know your worth so that it can
never be undervalued, destroyed or treated any less that what it is.
Know your worth
so that next time you won't fall victim to the realization of the "When I'm Gone" effect.
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