Monday, December 28, 2009

FEAR [inspired by Jazmine Sullivan]

One of my favorite songs
"Fear" by Jazmine Sullivan.

"This may sound silly but its true
So don't pretend it ain't you too
We're all afraid of something there
Cuz you ain't human without FEAR"

I believe "there's nothing to fear but fear itself." But since fear is something we manifest in our minds due to either a rational or irrational hysteria its hard to void on our own because of our individual rational or irrational selves.

Too heavy? Too deep?
Well its simple actually. But we make it up to be more than what it really is by personifying something that's not even real. I wish I could give you advice on how to conquer your fears but I've got some of my own.

3 Biggest FEARS:
I'm deathly pyrophobic.
[tell me fire doesn't burn and I won't fear it --- impossible]

Afraid of heights
[probably why I'm afraid of roller coasters haha]

Fear of not knowing what my future holds...
[I believe this is a loaded fear. Both a fear of time (the uncertain future) and not: knowing and being in control (the uncertainty).

I get really contemplative and start to wondering what my future holds for me. Like what's going to happen (in my life). With life there's no guarantee or guidebook to lead the way... in this journey called life. So when I really get to thinking about my future it truly does freak me out NOT knowing what is to become of me. If I'm doing the right thing? Making the right moves? etc. I overanalyze everything before I make a move and sometime I even think I kill myself over for that. [I'M DEFINITELY A THINKER] But before I kill myself in thought over analyzing life I stop and think...
"And if everything turns out
The way I hope it goes
Then I can't wait to find out
What it is that God knows" - Mutya Buena

Only God knows what's in store for me
So Imma just let his plan for me ride out

fears handed to God,

Friday, December 25, 2009

TOP 3 Christmas Songs

Merry Christmas Pictures, Images and Photos
hope you all are having a great one with family and friends

Now as much as I love music
(unlike some of yall) I like Christmas music.

Top 3 Christmas songs are...

TLC - Very Merry Christmas

This is just a really fun track
TLC always so so much personality in everything they do and this song set the Christmas season for me.

Destiny's Child - Opera of the Bells

Beautiful is the best way I can describe it.
I've always loved this song and I've always loved DC
so when they coved they song....
the harmonizations are ON POINT!

& lastly for laughs
Chunky P.A.M. - Merry X.X.X.L.M.A.S.

She got some fat rhymes & some fat food too haha
She delievers the real realness of Christmas
the food.
this is just a funny song...
its even on my ipod haha

Merry Christmas

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Its been 5 MONTHS...

It's officially been 5 MONTHS since I had my anaphylaxtic reaction.
To fill you all in 3 months ago I July 19, 2009 I had an anaphylaxtic reaction to KIX cereal in which I was rushed to the ER, almost died & spent the night in ICU until my release the next day.

Since then I have been going to doctors and an allergist where I got tested to see what I am allergic to & to find out what triggered/caused my anaphylaxtic reaction.

The results showed that
Nuts & Oats,
NSAIDs [non steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs]
(and clearly to stay away from them because the next reaction can be worse)

Since then life (foodwise) has SUCKED BIG TIME!
candy Pictures, Images and Photos

Cereal (most cereals) --- consists of OATS
Candy Bars --- most are made of PEANUTS
Snacks --- have both: NUTS & OATS
NO Oatmeal, NO Banana Nut Bread, NO Granola
NO Oatmeal Cookies or White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Coolies
[my favorite this allergy FML]
NO ibuphofen because its an NSAID.
NO Chick-fil-A --- chicken cooked in Peanut Oil.

I basically have to check the ingredient list of most of the foods I eat (especailly its it looks questionable having a potential to have OATS or NUTS) & I have to clear all OTC meds thru my allergist first to prevent another reaction.

I feel like I'm on a "Food Lockdown" [no Kanye haha]
I cant eat shxt without knowing whats in it... but hey that's my life and I'm living it! I'm living and that's all I can really be thankful for. Thank God!


Friday, December 18, 2009

The Shake Weight for Men Workout [infommercial]

I mean job well done.

I mean the bicep, shoulder, chest workout "concept"
looks like you're JERKIN!
(& I'm not talking bout the New Boyz "Your A Jerk")
I was like WTFeezy when they came out with this commercial, "like are they really selling a borderline pornographic workout equipment?"
I should be alone in my room wit this workout equipment
(for private use ONLY) haha jk.
Plus the fact that the commercial has the 3 dudes "working out" with the Shake Weight machine so close to each other.
They might as well do the do and jack each other off. Right?


this post is done all in good fun folks

Lady Gaga - "Teeth"

In case you don't already know
I'm a big LADY GAGA fan
[fashion x music x lyrics x persona]
Bought the The Fame MONSTER --- loved it BIG TIME.
"Bad Romance" was my shit! [still is...]
But track 8 on The Fame MONSTER is my nu nu shxt! --- "TEETH"

take a listen...

"take a bite of my bad girl meat
(bad girl meat)
now show me your TEETH

The beat is tribal and makes me wanna do start something crazy or march or step or something??? Lyrically... in case you didnt catch it because it's all in her lyrics AND I aint making any of this stuff up.

This chick is talking bout "Gettin' Some" Head! (Gettin' Gettin' Some Head). Just straight up RAW and gettin' her kicks out of it by having her men show her their TEETH haha
that nasty grin ;D
[[and that's all I have to say on the matter]]
Classic! Original!
"Now show me your teeth"